Engaño (Deception)

She’s twisted, turned, delusions in her head

She races toward the mirage, the shadow so blur

But oh so clear from the sidewalk path

Where she stands

Feet planted on the dirt crusted earth

Clutching on the pound of life she’s got left behind

She runs

Hunts,

The illusion…

Half way through the chase, she stops, turns back

And takes in through her hallucination that it is nothing but a dream

A salient vision, maybe a thought, she can’t say

She wouldn’t know

“It’s like walking towards the rainbow

A ray of sun I try to contain”

She sobs

“When I reach thus far, it is naught but dew drops,

Nay but a light, that brightens my darkness yet it cannot be held

The night will come

Inevitable

And the darkness…aye it cannot be undone”

She shrugs…

“What becomes of me, if the sun doesn’t rise again?

There will be no light

No reason for life

I may not see my mirages to boot

Because with no light, nothing will be visible

What becomes of me with no color?

Will all be black or white?

Like a page from the news or maybe a dull brown

Like the autumn ground?”

“Engaño!”

She cries

“I feel so deceived… alone…. yo mismo

Mislead

When I wake up will the light be gone?”

But she smiles, out of liking, out of dread

Out of confusion perhaps

‘coz fear, she ponders, is life unsought,

Fight not fought

Doubt is none but days unlived

And land not walked”

The light may dim, maybe when the morning dawns

Or when her life is done

But no fear nor hoodwinking sight

The twist of karma or the panic of the night

No forlorn paths she treaded can pause

The days lived, the loves mislead, the tears shred, or the joys sensed

Vida

It’s a battle

Delusions lead the way